causational | psl; after the kiss

Eddie is so perceptive, it's one of the things that can really get to Cisco sometimes. It's almost like he can see right through any wall Cisco tries to put up. Or maybe he's more transparent than he thought, but he kind of prefers the idea that Eddie is just that good at reading people.

"I don't care if anybody approves, I do and...that's all that matters." He slides one hand down Eddie's arm and reaches to lace their fingers together. "I didn't mean to make you feel bad. We can tell them, we can tell anyone you want." He can't help the ridiculous smile that's firmly planted on his lips with no sign of going away any time soon. He presses his forehead against Eddie's and bites his lip before brushing his lips against Eddie's. "I really like the idea of people knowing I'm yours." He mumbles softly, still grinning. He means every word of it, he's not just saying it to placate him, he really wants to let Eddie have that moment with their friends, that swell of pride that comes with sharing really great news with people you care about.

"You didn't make me feel bad, babe." Eddie says, with a little smile, gently twining his fingers between Cisco's and rubbing his thumb against Cisco's knuckles, gentle and soft. When Cisco rests his forehead against Eddie's, he juts his chin forward to press a soft kiss against Cisco's lower lip, enjoying the softness against his own lips. He likes Cisco's mouth, full and soft and warm, so he spends a moment kissing it, reveling in the sensation of it.

"And we don't have to rush. If you're enjoying keeping it just between us right now, I'm fine with that, as long as I know it's not...that you're ashamed of us. Of me."

Tilting his head back, he meets Cisco's eyes, swallows a little hard, "I could get that, if you were. It means coming out, doesn't it? Talking about this?"

"Good, cause I'd never wanna do that. Ever." He's more than a little emphatic about that fact, but, well...he has reasons to be. He's been ignored and treated like he was nothing, made to feel impossibly small, and he'd never, in a billion years, want to be the cause of that feeling in someone else. He smiles a little into the kiss, but returns it soft and inviting. Kissing Eddie is kind of one of his favorite things to do these days.

"I could never be ashamed of you, okay? Or us. Like-- not in a million years." He lets out a soft chuckle, "You're amazing, okay? And there's not a thing in the universe that would ever have me associating you and shame in the same sentence." He brings their linked hands up to press a kiss across Eddie's fingers. "Promise."

He catches those crystal blue eyes and considers that for a moment. "I guess it does, yeah." He nods a little.

Eddie can't help but think it'll probably happen, at some point. That Cisco will hurt him and he will hurt Cisco, and it will be awful. But right now, it's nice to know that if it does happen, it won't be on purpose. The soft kisses, gentle and reassuring, against his mouth, against his fingers, are wonderful, and by the time Cisco is saying that he would never be ashamed of him, Eddie is grinning. It's a big, bright grin, warm, his eyes on Cisco's.

"Good. I would never be ashamed of you either. I mean, look at you."

The grin goes a little crooked and Eddie lifts a hand to cup the side of Cisco's face, he brushes his thumb against his boyfriend's lower lip. When Cisco confirms that admitting to going out with him would mean coming out, Eddie nods.

"Yeah. Me too. It's a little scary, isn't it?"

Cisco can't stop the way his cheeks heat up a little at the compliment, but... he doesn't argue it. It's hard not to, it's a kneejerk reaction, but...he tries. For Eddie. Because even if Cisco doesn't believe certain things about himself, Eddie does, and he doesn't want take that away, strip those beliefs of their meaning and their importance. So he tries really hard just to let it happen and sometimes he actually succeeds.

In a little bit of a playful manner, Cisco gently catches his thumb between his teeth. He lets go as a grin forms instead, "A little, but...in good way. More exciting than, like--" He shrugs, "I dunno, dread or something." He presses his forehead against his boyfriend's and kisses the tip of his nose. "But I can do anything with you by my side." There's a genuine belief in those words that hangs in the air briefly. He really does have all the confidence in the world in that fact.

Eddie sees the effort it costs Cisco not to argue about the compliment, and genuinely appreciates the fact that he didn't reject it. It's nice, to see Cisco accept it, however grudgingly, instead of telling Eddie he's wrong. Maybe, he thinks...maybe if he keeps saying things and Cisco keeps accepting them, sometime in the future, Cisco will actually believe what Eddie is saying to him.

When Cisco's teeth close against his thumb, Eddie feels a flush of heat, and he tries to pull his thoughts back to appropriate places, swallowing a little while Cisco speaks. When Cisco continues, resting their foreheads together, kissing Eddie on the nose, he can't help the soft, nervous laugh.

"Mmm, right? I feel the same way about you. I guess I'm a little nervous about coming out, though. Iris is probably going to be pretty upset."

Cisco reaches up to brush a thumb across Eddie's cheek. He's adorable when he gets flustered enough to blush. "Really?" He bites his lip as he considers it. That Eddie feels the same way, like Cisco gives him the push to be able to handle anything that comes his way. It makes something bright and warm swell in his chest. Could he really be that for someone? It's kind of an amazing thought, honestly.

"Don't be." He says softly, shaking his head. "It'll be okay. They're our friends...they'll understand." For all his negativity and cynicism that comes as easy as breathing most days, Cisco is an odd well of hope sometimes. Especially when it comes to the people he cares about. "Might be a little weird for Iris," he admits, because he can't deny that possibility. "But she's a pretty reasonable woman, I think she'll be okay, too."

It's true - there's something about Cisco, his warm presence, his support, his kindness, that makes it easier to feel like he can handle anything. Like he's supported. It feels wrong to think it, but Iris' support, her attention, had always been divided - between him and Barry, him and The Flash, and in the end, the two were the same, weren't they?

Cisco is different. When Cisco looks at him, he feels like Cisco sees him. Cisco looks at him the way he'd always wanted Iris to look at him, and toward the end, had realized she never would.

"Yeah...I think you're right. I guess...I'm nervous about turning both our lives upside-down, you know? But I think the risk is worth it, if I get to hold your hand in public, or kiss you just outside the Cortex, or bring you lunch at work..."

He reaches to lace his fingers through Eddie's own and finds his thumb running across the edge of his hand. "It is...kind of scary. But-- in a good way, you know? Like...when you finally decide to go on a roller coaster or go-- skydiving or something..." His face screws up a little at his own suggestion and he shakes his head. "I don't know. But..." Cisco leans over and presses his lips lightly to Eddie's, "it'll be good. Totally worth it."

As if on cue to end of the conversation, the sound of water trying to boil over onto the stove hits their ears. "Oh, shit," he laughs softly and releases his hold on Eddie so he can go turn the heat on the burner down and calm the briefly forgotten pot down. "I still think it's hot, watching you cook." He grins.

When Cisco makes his comparison, Eddie smiles, bright and abrupt, laughs softly and nods at him, eyes bright..

"Yeah, it's exactly like that. Terrifying, but exhilarating, all at once. And yeah, I think it'll be worth it, to be able to show off that you're my boyfriend. That you and I are together. To have you look at me the way you look at me in public, without being afraid, you know? Or having to hide. And I think I can handle the scary parts with you by my side."

When the water boils over, Eddie laughs again, pulls free of Cisco with another quick peck to his lower lip, and deals with the food. It's only another 20 minutes or so before the food is done, and he's dishing it up, smiling over at Cisco.

"So, how romantic do you want me to go with this?"

"Mmm...yes, all of the couple-y bonus perks." He grins, watching as Eddie moves back over to handle the food. It smells amazing and it isn't long before he's wrapping up.

The question comes as a bit of a surprise and he isn't entirely sure how to answer it at first. After a moment's consideration, he tilts his head to the side curiously, "What'd you have in mind?"

Eddie can't help but grin when Cisco mentions coupley bonus perks. It's still new, being able to say that he and Cisco are a couple, still exciting, sends a thrill through him.

So he's grinning even while he manages the food, gets everything cooked and dished out, and when Cisco asks him what he has in mind, a brow raises. Grinning, he shrugs.

"Well, it's already going to be fancy pasta and champagne, but I also brought candles and flowers..."

He loves that grin, so pure and bright that it makes something warm swell in Cisco's chest to see it. He hopes that never goes away, that nothing ever dulls the light that he sees in Eddie, because it's just nice and he wants to hold onto it as tightly as he can.

"You did?" He can't contain the bright grin of his own that comes with those two little words. He's just so thoughtful and sweet, it still takes Cisco by surprise at times. "I like the sound of that." There's no denying that in his heart of hearts, Cisco is kind of a romantic, so this? This tugs at all the right strings and hits all the right buttons and he can't even dream of denying either himself or Eddie of it.

The light in Eddie's eyes is all for Cisco - it's obvious in how he looks at him, head tilted back, lips slightly parted, his expression awash with happiness. Adoration.

"Of course I did, I mean...I was making dinner for my new boyfriend."

Shifting his shoulders, Eddie tilt his head and grins up at Cisco, mouth curved into a slightly crooked smile. The moment Cisco says he likes the sound of it, Eddie winks at him and heads over to the bag the groceries arrived in. With a little flourish, he pulls out the flowers and candles, sets them up - bright blooms in an empty and rinsed out wine bottle, a few tall candles set out on the table. After dimming the lights a little, he offers Cisco another crooked smile, his cheeks a bit pink.

"Voila..."

Cisco's still grinning as Eddie sets up the flowers and candles, butterflies fluttering in his stomach. He acts like this was so normal, so obvious and it just feels so good to know Eddie cares enough to go the extra mile like this, even when he didn't really have to. Kind of makes Cisco feel important, which is a thought that just makes the butterflies a little more wild.

Finally, he slides off the counter and saunters over toward the table. "You're amazing," he says softly, leaning up on his toes to press a soft kiss to the corner of Eddie's mouth.

psl; after the kiss

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