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Eddie Thawne ([personal profile] causational) wrote2016-10-15 10:39 pm
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psl; after the kiss



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[personal profile] thisismadfreaky 2016-10-16 11:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[Cisco has an odd relationship with sleep. Most nights, it takes him entirely too long to get there, but once he does crash, he's out like a rock and can sleep a good portion of the day away if he's allowed. Today is no different, in fact, he arguably slept harder than usual because for the first time in a long time, he wasn't alone. He's always found it easier to sleep with someone next to him, part a bit touch-craved, part just being genuinely lonely. Plus, the warm weight resting against him is just a bonus.

He's not really all too near consciousness just yet, but that hazy awareness is trying to knock at the door and he stirs a little, burrowing against that warmth at his side with a soft graon of protest. He doesn't want to be awake yet, so he'll just cling to the last scraps of sleep while he can.

The light brush of a hand against his face as his hair is moved away starts him awake more than anything, though his eyes don't quite open yet.]


Mmn? [He mumbles incoherently, squinting his eyes open against the sunlight peeking in through the blinds. That's when the haze breaks and awareness hits and oh. Oh, God. Was what he was remembering real or was it a dream?

Something like panic rises in his chest and has him sitting up a little too fast, eyes unmoving and locked on Eddie while the rest of the world fades from existence. There's a painfully obvious nervous note in his voice as he stumbles his way through his words.]
Eddie? I... wh-- that happened, right? It- it was real?

[Please, God, let it be real because it he has to explain what he's talking about because it was all just a really, really great and seriously realistic dream, he might die of embarrassment.]
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[personal profile] thisismadfreaky 2016-10-17 05:05 am (UTC)(link)
No! [He says a little too quickly, a little too loud, and his cheeks burn at that realization. He drops the volume of his voice and tries again.] I mean... wh-why wouldn't I want that? I meant what I said. I jus...[He gives a soft, nervous chuckle and tucks his hair behind his ear.] you're sure? That-- that's what you want?

[His eyes never left Eddie's face. His heart is thudding hard against his chest because this was the part where he had to expect the worst. Truth was, Cisco hoped he didn't back out. He tried not to, hope usually leads to disappointment and he tried to avoid that as often as possible. If the bar is set low, then you're surprised more than you're disappointed.

Or it was the theory he ran on, even if it didn't always work out like it was supposed to. But he was giving Eddie an out, he could easily just back out now, no hard feelings, totally clean break.]
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[personal profile] thisismadfreaky 2016-10-17 05:54 am (UTC)(link)
[A weight lifts from his chest and something bright and warm takes its place instead. He can't contain the smile that spreads across his face. Oh, God, he's adorable. That's totally unfair.]

No. [He shakes his head and shifts closer to Eddie, resting a hand gently on his arm.] It's definitely not a mistake.
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[personal profile] thisismadfreaky 2016-10-17 06:36 am (UTC)(link)
I was pretty out of it...[He laughs softly and shakes his head.] But I knew exactly what I was doing. I've...[He shrugs one shoulder.] kind of liked you for awhile, actually, I just...couldn't say anything.

[His gaze drops and something flutters in his stomach. He's usually not so outspoken, but Eddie is just easy to talk to, to be open with.]

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[personal profile] thisismadfreaky 2016-11-05 06:07 am (UTC)(link)
They had been at this for... a couple of weeks now. The pair of them, just being, and flirting and having dates here and there when the time and lack of crisis in the city allowed. And it was perfect, honestly, everything Cisco could have hoped for after that first night of clumsy confessions made in the dark. Eddie was amazing, above and beyond just about anyone else he'd dated in a long while. He had a type, and Bad Decisions were usually it. Eddie was the exact opposite of that, though, and he's starting to wonder if maybe that's exactly what he needed all along. He's glad Eddie gets to be that person, the different one, the shining star.

The only thing that hadn't been done just yet, that was a normal part of this whole dating thing, was...telling people. Cisco navigated the conversations where it almost came up with the ease and skill of someone who is used to keeping secrets. Not that he's ashamed or even that he doesn't want to share the news with their friends, as much as it probably looks exactly like either or both of those things. But he knows how this goes, and the second they know, it's everyone's. Business. Information. Story to tell. The second a group knows a thing, that's when it becomes community property and...he's not ready for that yet.

Cisco isn't the most secretive person, sure, he has his secrets same as anyone else, but for the most part, he's pretty open. This is one area of his life that he isn't quite as readily open about. Not immediately. It's always been that way. He likes the idea of having a piece of things that are entirely his own, and not for the world to see. And it's not at all about shame, more than it is about pure and unadulterated selfishness.

If Eddie's bothered by any of it, Cisco certainly hasn't picked up on anything. Whether that's because everything's fine, Cisco's oblivious, or Eddie's hiding anything is yet to be seen. But as it stands, Cisco is blissfully unaware of any potential animosities brewing as he answers the door to his apartment, beaming and bright at the sight on the other side of the door. "Hey, you," he ushers his boyfriend inside with a wave of his hand and steps aside so Eddie can slip in and he kicks the door shut with his foot.
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[personal profile] thisismadfreaky 2016-11-14 03:38 am (UTC)(link)
Cisco's smile broadens into something bright at that. This was unexpected...and really sweet. "Well, technically there are vegetables in a lot of the takeout I eat, you know." He counters, voice light and playful as he follows Eddie into the kitchen. Someone who wants to cook for him? Yes, please. Even if Cisco can cook, this is seriously so genuinely sweet he can't even find it in himself to argue the idea.

"But I can't really hate the idea of watching you in the kitchen." He admits, leaning on his arms against the counter. "What's on the menu?" He asks, canting his head slightly to one side.
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[personal profile] thisismadfreaky 2016-11-16 03:33 am (UTC)(link)
"Aw, fiiiine." He draws the word out playfully, watching as all the ingredients are lined up on the counter. His eyes light up at the answer, "Oooh, that sounds delicious." He had no idea Eddie was so great in the kitchen, but he's definitely already approving of this little endeavor.

"Who doesn't like a guy who can cook?" He chuckles softly when Eddie bumps his hip. He grins and pushes off the counter, moving over to a section where he won't be in Eddie's way so he can hop up to sit on the edge. Prime viewing perch.
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[personal profile] thisismadfreaky 2016-11-17 04:46 am (UTC)(link)
Cisco smiles back. He can't help it, Eddie has one of those really warm, incredibly infectious smiles that he can't let go without returning it. The kind of smile that makes something in his chest tight and warm.

"You don't have impress me," the words tumble out before he can even catch himself, and how self-deprecating it sounds. He tries to curb that sometimes, because he knows it can get kind of old, quick, to hear someone talk about themselves the way he does so often about himself. But, he makes a save by adding, "I'm already hooked."

And it wasn't a lie, either. Cisco can't get enough of him.

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[personal profile] thisismadfreaky 2017-03-18 03:47 am (UTC)(link)
Nearly two weeks. Eddie had been captured for nearly two weeks before they'd figured out where he was being held. And he'd been right under their noses the entire time. He felt awful for not piecing it together sooner and he wasn't sure he wanted to know what Eobard had done to him, the terrible things he must have said.

Somehow, Cisco managed to rein in the big swell of emotion he was feeling rise up in his chest. He let Caitlin check him over, listens as Eddie recounts the story. But the only thing Cisco is focused on is Eddie. His face. His eyes. The smile that he sees right through. It's a put on thing, a mask to say he's okay when he's the furthest thing from it, and Cisco can see it plain as day.

When he asks to go home, Cisco's immediately at his side, threading his fingers carefully through Eddie's own. "Let me come with you." The words are more of a statement than a question, he's not very intent on letting Eddie stay alone right now. That's the last thing he needs.
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[personal profile] thisismadfreaky 2017-03-19 05:36 am (UTC)(link)
The scratchy sound to his voice, the pauses and hesitations--it's all more than enough to tell Cisco that by Eddie's side is exactly where he needs to be.

"Of course," he says softly, bringing their joined hands up to press a gentle kiss across Eddie's fingers. "I'll be right there, the whole time."

That quiet promise is the last thing that's said before Cisco helps his boyfriend off the exam table and takes him home. He stops at his own apartment long enough to grab a few things--he's not planning on leaving Eddie's side for a few days, at least--and finishes the rest of the drive to Eddie's place.

"Do you want a shower or rest first?" he asks softly as they get inside.
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[personal profile] thisismadfreaky 2017-03-19 09:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Even though he hates to see Eddie in a place like this, Cisco's glad he's let go of the facade. For starters, it's better for him to let the real emotion and weight of things pour through than trying to bottle them and play like it's fine. And...it's a show of trust in its own way, that he doesn't feel the need to upkeep that kind of mask around Cisco.

He's still at Eddie's side, a hand resting gently at the small of his back as he considers the options and says how hungry he is. "Okay," Cisco's own voice is soft, "you can take a shower and I'll have something ready when you get out." There's a slight hesitation before he adds, "Un-unless you need...anything." He'd stay with Eddie for every possible second if he had to, but he doesn't want to step over any lines and make him feel like he's babying him or something, either. Eddie may need all the mother-henning in the world right now in Cisco's eyes, but it doesn't mean it's necessarily what he wants.
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[personal profile] thisismadfreaky 2017-03-26 12:51 pm (UTC)(link)
That touch of shame in Eddie's voice hurts to hear. Cisco doesn't ever want him to feel ashamed for feeling. He's the last person to judge anything like that, his own emotions often far too raw and open.

So when he says, "Of course, babe." he says it like it's the obvious next step and he slides his arm around Eddie's waist gently, guiding him through the apartment. He disappears for a short moment, only long enough to grab Eddie a fresh set of clothes.

There's a thickness to the air that's hard to ignore. Part general tension because of what happened left Cisco unsure of what to say, part guilt he felt at how long it took them to find him. He was right under their noses the entire time...He'd never really be okay with that, so he was going to focus on making Eddie feel okay again.

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